For the last few weeks or so, I have found myself in a bit of a funk. There’s no one thing I can put my finger on to identify as the cause. I just feel stuck. Nothing is going particularly wrong in my life, but nothing is spectacularly right, either.
So what’s the problem, you ask? The problem is that we live in a society that teaches us to constantly pursue a goal, each one more loftier than the last. So we go through life pursuing one goal after another, always looking to the future. We think that once we achieve this extensive list of goals, happiness will surely follow. Before we know it, we have spent a lifetime looking ahead and chasing shadows. What happens during the time between one goal and the next?
If you’re like me, you spend your time feeling anxious and stuck, like you need a “fix.” You get frustrated, because all you’ve ever known how to do was pursue your goals in hopes of finding your happily-ever-after. You create something new and feel the elation of the high, and once the high wears off, the cycle of anxiousness starts all over again.
The problem is that the whole world tells us that pursuing “greatness” is important, but they don’t tell us that greatness is not all there is.
There will be times when you are not the best. You may not get the dream job, or the best grades, or the opportunity to start your own business. You may desire to have a family, but it’s possible you won’t meet Mrs. Right. So what happens when a life spent pursuing, still doesn’t bring happiness? Can you become content with what you have, or will you keep chasing shadows?
I honestly don’t know what I’ll do now. I just know that I can’t keep living for short-lived highs or avoiding inevitable lows. My plan is to practice contentment. I am not giving up, but I am giving in, to the reality that I may never have it all, and that’s okay.
Say it with me: I am content with my life as it is, in this very moment.